I Know, I haven’t written in a long time.
Well I have written but I haven’t published it. Mostly because everything has been a rant or a ramble. I think too much of what I’ve read lately has been of that same anxious/afraid/angry thread and I don’t want to follow that crowd.
My anxiety was taking the wheel and the car wasn’t headed in good directions. As I’ve said before I’ve thought about publishing some of my crazier thought drafts but the thought of a large public reading of these makes me paranoid that someone might come and carry me away in one of these unmarked minivans. Since I hear that’s how we’re doing things now.
I also want to make sure that I’ve done my research before I ever post anything of the “Let me tell you what to think” variety.
The world is scary-crazy right now, huh?
It’s not just me right?
I am currently in the middle of learning how to correct my own prejudices and some wrongly held historical notions, while planning a year of homeschooling for a fifth grader and a seventh grader, as well as a crazy gardening mess of weeds. Not to mention all the covid-19 craziness…
The weeds in the garden are probably the least of my worries. (The tiller broke, then the weed eater broke, and when the push mower broke I laughed out loud because 2020 is officially the worst) (I hoed but I couldn’t win the war against the crab grass or the Bermuda grass-but I’m preparing my attack)
I’ve taken a lot of breaks from social media and the news and really anything that isn’t my kids or my garden or my animals. But even that often leaves me feeling guilty that I have the ability to do so, as well as anxious that I need to know what’s going on.
Change is coming fast and it’s coming whether or not anyone wants it or is ready for it.
I take every day as it comes. I’m learning new things and I hope to write about them soon. Homeschool plans, harvesting, and how the garden this year went. I’m also prepping for the fall garden and the winter garden and I’m revising some of the crazy posts that I’ve got sitting in the drafts box.
I have no advice to give at the moment. I just hope that if you’re reading this you are okay and you know that you matter.
Also, if you feel like you’re going fucking nuts, you’re definitely not alone. I am on the crazy covid coaster with you.
A Hermitess 